LIFE SUCKS, THEN YA DIE!

Praying is easy and endearing.  I love the Lord and my Heavenly Father...understanding what They tell me isn't as easy as I thought, I guess.   I believe sometimes maybe my faith has been fake and I thought it was real.   Not what I believe, but what I feel...I have thought I have had MANY spiritual experiences and answers to prayers.   Many of my prayers in the recent past seem as though I have misunderstood the answers.   I believe I have received answers to deeply sought questions and to my chagrin (after following my heart, mind and the Spirit) my actions on those answers have seemed to have been wrong????   I am at a loss.   I do really really try to do my very best to follow the truths I know.   The problem isn't what I believe...I know there have been struggles in the last so many years in  my life...however, I do not feel as though I have walked backward so far I can't remember how to communicate with my Father in Heaven.   This is actually terribly frightening to me.  I feel alone and don't believe the Lord or Heavenly Father would leave me...however, I don't feel I have walked away from Them either?
I remember the scripture...I will prove them herewith to see if they will follow all the commandments which I the Lord giveth them...     I know before I write this next statement...it is  childish...I am so tired of being proved...I know no matter what...I can't be perfect...however, I am feeling overwhelmed and don't seem to be good enough for anyone...and I mean, anyone...earthly or heavenly.    And now, the one action I felt I could always depend on seems to be messed up...and I DO believe Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are perfect...so...the action must be the fault of me???
So as a friend of mine told me one time...  Life Sucks, Then Ya Die.
I just want to endure to the end.

Going on a diet...

Well, Jeff and I are going on a diet whether we want to or not.  HAHAHAHA.   I thought this cartoon was hilarious.   Seems like no matter how down and out we get we don't lose much weight.   We always seem to have pasta and bread.   So...the rest of the story...
Jeff and I are back.   WE LOVE OUR APARTMENT.   It is really nice.  We look out on a road and onto the beautiful landscape up to the Clubhouse.  It is beautiful.  
We have sold so many things in our moves we can not believe we even have anything to unpack.  :)   However, we have a lot.   We are still not totally  unpacked.  It is getting closer tho.   We need a few purchases to finish up, but...it will get done.   We need a job...Jeff is interviewing in Virginia and Fort Wayne.  PLEASE, whomever reads this, PRAY he finds something in Fort Wayne.   I don't want to be here by myself without a vehicle and without Jeff...and we love it here.
All is going well.   We are excited for change and also waiting with fear and trepidation for the job of our dreams...or a job.   :)
All is well...all is well.

We're Back!!!!!!!!!!

This title reminds me of Poltergeist!!!   Hopefully, we won't be as scary.   We have packed our belongings and with the help of our family and friends in Staunton, Virgina and our family and friends in Indiana we are back.  The vehicle made it and we are in.   The apartment is nice...love it!!  The view is terrific...so glad we changed the location!   We can count the boxes we have to unpack...finally!!!  It will take awhile to find places for ALL THE GLASSWARE!!!!  (Dishes etc).   There are two people and a little cat...how many dishes do we need?   But...I must say...we have had to get rid of so many things...I know...I know...things are not important...however, it is like opening up the wrapping of old friends when I see what we have been able to keep.   UGH.  So glad for our belongings...I wouldn't cry much about anything IF we had to get rid of a lot of things tomorrow...however, glad for what we have.  Thanks so much Heavenly Father and His angels who have helped us along the way.   YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!   I start tomorrow filling cupboards in the kitchen.  FINALLY!  I am soooo tired of seeing everything everywhere.   I am so grateful my husband is tall.   I am so short I can't believe I am not a public nuisance for it!!!   He is very kind and thoughtful to do all the high lifting and sometimes low picking up!!!  Such a great man I have in my life.    Well, we are here...we are staying and we are looking for work.   Hopefully, this will be the week for a full-time job for us!!! Please pray!  Hugs to everyone.   Special prayers are offered up for ALL those who have helped us.  You know who you are and so does the Lord.   We will NEVER forget!  Thanks.