Sadness...

You know in this life there are things people need and things people want. I don't know if I need a child...however, I want one of my very own. I want to be able to have a say as to how they are raised and I know they would be loved and not taken advantage of in any way. I would say I am sorry if I messed up...because I would mess up. Cause, I am not perfect. If I could choose qualities in a child of mine...I would choose a child like Timi Grant. She isn't perfect either. She is a kid...dang is she a kid. I love her so much. She has taught me so much in this life about love, gratitude, patience and strength. I want the best for her. I want so badly for her to be happy. She is going through a hard time right now and I am suffering with her. I want it all to turn out so well. How do you make life the way you want it to be for those you love. Isn't it horrible to see those you love suffer?

I am grateful if I couldn't have a child I was blessed with Denise as my sister to have Timi as my niece. Thanks for everything Timi. You are loved so much and forever.